Delay delay delay

I leave for Texas in three days for Jenna's (Jenaenae) wedding.

I have yet to tackle ANY of the things I needed to get done before leaving, and have instead been GLUED to Nie Nie's blog. I have read from start to current in roughly 3.5 days, during which I should have been studying (for the quiz I just decided to skip this morning-she drops the lowest quiz score anyway), doing PILES of homework(well, not really piles because most of it is online...so maybe FILES?...hmm), packing, or an assortment of other very useful and important things.

Instead I have been reading Nie and requesting that Andrew now refer to me as "Ro" like Lawrence from work does. She has taken over my mind (I was actually even contemplating blogging in her colored and varying texts like she does in the shower this morning-where all my real thinking occurs-but decided that's just lame and akin to stealing her creativity or something), and I'm sure when I'm finished with this blog it will have sounded a lot like her. I have realized I need more pictures in my blog, but I'll get to that in a minute.

Other things I have been doing while neglecting the things I should be doing:

-Spending time with Andrew and appreciating him and making him giggle. (really)

-Spending time with friends even though I made a declaration that I wouldn't until the end of term.

-Talking to my very patient and amazing husband about the fact that my tender little heart has been humbled by God through Nie's blog, and that if I listen carefully a few things will happen:

We will have a baby(gasp, biologically), maybe more than one. That I don't want to pursue medicine, regardless of my desire for it, and wake up when I'm 35 and realize I spent the last 10+ years of my life crapping all over my blessing of a husband and being selfish. That there are other things I can do, and since I've finally stopped to listen to God instead of making my own plans, medicine is done. That I can help people just as much using this Community Health Education undergraduate just as much as being a physician, but ever the Heather I am-I've already started looking(actually found of course) the graduate program I want to attend. More on this later. That MAYBE babies are not that annoying, and it has everything to do with how I approach it. And a lot of other things.

-Having a very serious talk with the HB and coming to the conclusion that it really hurts his feelings that I talk about him so much with my friends. So I'm going to limit that, because he deserves to not have hurt feelings because he's such a prince.

-Reading the poem he posted on our computer for me to read everyday, following suit after the whiteboard wall poems....which I will share because he doesn't mind me sharing the good stuff :)

If ever you need me,

I'll be right here,

To chase away the sadness,

And wipe away a tear.

If ever you need me,

I'll be two steps behind,

To follow in your footsteps,

And hear what's on your mind.

If ever you need me,

You'll never have to fear,

That your presence isn't important,

And your love isn't dear.

If ever you need me,

I'll always be around,

To bring back the laughter,

Where deep in your heart it's found.

You'll never have to worry,

For I'll always be here,

To chase away the sadness,

And wipe away a tear.

I am here for you!

Heather

Always and forever

Andrew

He just googles them, or something, not really sure. But he's pretty stinking cool.

-Spent time evaluating how I dress, and realizing that the Mormons are onto something with this whole modesty thing. Plus-it will turn my husband on more if he gets to see more bits of me than everyone else.

-Losing weight. After a visit with a very "nice" lady...insert other negative adjectives in quotes...about my dizziness and nausea that I've been experiencing for about two years, and being treated like an idiot, and her calling my eating habits my "feeding" habits(translate: you're a fat cow and I don't know what you expect me to help you with today Ms. Rowlett. That was paraphrased) I have lost 8 lbs. and have been cooking all my meals. Eat that "nice" lady. I will feel better about myself.

-Talking with the HB about quitting my job for Spring term, but most definitely for Summer term so I can just work markets with him, and then focus on school.

And even now I'm supposed to be at school studying but I'm still at home blogging with wet hair that needs to be dried and food that needs to be packed so I can make my own food later....and and and and and

Instead I should be getting all this done to get ready to leave to go celebrate Jenaenae. Le Sigh.