October

I've been feeling so very hazy lately. Mostly to do with my very retail schedule, and all of its inconsistencies. (I'm horrible with it's, its, it is...btw)

Sometimes I feel like I never see my husband, and I miss him. Other times I know I never see my husband and I'm okay with that because I'm annoyed. But mostly-I just miss him. My schedule is basically crap until after Christmas, which just so happens to also be the time that winter term starts, and then it all begins again.

I'm almost completely done reading The Time Traveler's Wife, it is amazing. I love the language and concept of time.

I want to have the time to sit down and just knit for days, but I know it will never come. I want to join the Peace Corps today. I want a boxer puppy and an Element, but I know that if I get them they will just be things I'll have to part with when we do join the Corps, so I kind of don't want them anymore. I'm sore, all over. I started p90x two days ago and it hurts so good. I LOVE the achy sore you get after working out. I ADORE the results. I am not a big fan of the actually working out though...lol...so I'm thinking if I just do it everyday and after 15(fact) it becomes a habit, I'll just stick with it.

I don't love my nephew. When I hold him he is a stranger baby and I am very annoyed. I feel terrible because it isn't his fault I don't know him, but I just kind of don't ever really want to try. Hate me, I know that's terrible.

I LOVE JULIA SAGER-she really is my very favorite friend. I so enjoy getting to know her a little bit better every time I spend time with her, my only gripe is that she is not quiiiiiite comfortable yet to just tell me all the thoughts going through her head while I'm babbling. On that note, I will compose a list and be done:

"The Ways that Nattie Sue is Like Her Mother" or "The Ways Julia Sager is Like a 5 yr Old"

1. She is very tender hearted, and very aware of other people's feelings
2. She is EXTREMELY stubborn, and HATES it when she doesn't get her way.
3. She thinks about sparkly things, or things she would much rather be thinking about most of the time you're trying to teach her something.
   
4. When a person tries to point out what she did that was naughty, she distracts you with other things like being a unicorn or what exactly the situation is so you'll take her side.
5. She has imaginary friends who are always wonderful until she really starts to play with them, and learns that they're kind of poopy just like everyone else.
6. She loves her sister(s) more than anything else, and would willingly give up her mostest favoritest thing to benefit them.
7. She loves pastel colors.
8. She is smarter than a majority of her peers, but hasn't figured out a way quite yet to show the world her intellect.
9. She enjoys anime movies, even if Friend Heather thinks they're the nerdiest thing aside from Magic cards or WOW.
10. She really appreciates Friend Andrew and what a total Prince he is. Fortunately though, this is one area where Natti and Juli differ: Friend Andrew can only be so many people's boyfriend in one house.
    
11. She loves to work in the kitchen, even if after the initial excitement wears off it gets a bit tedious and boring.
12. She LOVES being crafty for her friends and family.
13. She laughs at most of my stupid jokes.
    
14. She cries when she's hurt.
15. She looks for affirmation when something is painful, like scratches on a playground or words. But if you tell her it's not a big deal-she won't listen. She's nobody's fool.
16. She is someone I love so very much, couldn't live without, and cannot wait to watch grow.
    

The end.